Blank

Blank

NAVIBAR

blank2

blank2

Saturday, 17 January 2015

Self-Criticism

Right... I'm sitting here (with a bowl full of strawberries) unsure of how to go about writing this rather personal post, I'm finding this more nerve-racking than I should - Is it too personal? Am I going to look back on this and cringe? Probably. But nonetheless I think it's something I want to say.


Nice picture of Savannah here...

            
             I know a lot of people, myself included, are overly critical of themselves - criticising yourself can be good if you know you can be better and want to achieve more, but it can also be harmful. Whilst having an emotional evening reflecting on life (as you do) and listening to Aiden Knight - Dream Team (You can put this on in the background if you want to make this post really emotional), I realised how grateful I am to have the life that I do; one with lots of caring friends, family and an extraordinary future if I'm willing to work for it. And so that brought me to friends, how much I love them and how many amazing qualities they have, then I began thinking how a lot of them are unaware of how astounding they really are, and that's sad. People should love things about themselves, they really should, and I know we all have flaws but those seem to draw attention away from our what we appreciate about ourselves.
I was afraid that when I posted this I would seem a bit self centred as if I was bragging but I would like to say that that's not the purpose of this post at all. I wanted to make a small list of things I like about myself and a small list of things I don't like but will try to accept or change, mainly because these days I find myself letting the negativity built up in my head get to me but also to encourage others to the same; I find it helps on a bad day to make lists. 


Things that I like about myself


  • My eyes - I like the way my eyes look after I've gotten enough sleep and their chocolate brown colour
  • Determination - I often commit to something If I really want to do well in it but other times I make unattainable goals and fail to achieve those
  • My hair colour - It's a very dark brown that's often mistaken for being black, I used to want to die it lighter but now I quite like it
  • Organisation skills - Those who personally know me will be laughing about now but if I want to be I can be very organised (believe it or not)
  • My taste in music 

Things that I do not like about myself

  • The fact that I often find myself spewing out words and sentences that are quite nonsensical 
  • I'm a jealous person, I try my best to not show it but I am
  • My weight - Yes, though I am on a gradual quest/journey/whatever to change my weight, I believe I need to accept that I am not overweight in anyway but that it's still okay to want to lose a healthy amount of weight for confidence aspects. Additionally, although I want to change my weight, I'm very proud of how far I've come from the slightly tubby pre-teen I was
  • The way my body image changes depending on what I eat - it happens less so now though
  • That my happiness is totally reliant on others - now, you can look at this two ways; allowing others to make you happy is a brilliant thing but becoming sulky and upset over being left out when friends are getting together or over a pretty insignificant person not liking you is (I'm sorry to be harsh) stupid
Let this be an invitation, do this for yourself (don't say you don't have any things you like about yourself because I know you do) and acknowledge what you love about yourself - it could make you a whole lot happier.
- Jess -