I couldn't sleep last night. It was a whole mixture of things including the rain and the drifting dreams and the fear but it all resulted in one thing. No sleep. So it came to about 3:30 in the morning and, as I always do when I'm alone with my thoughts, I started having conversations with an imaginary being. One of the questions I asked myself was to list my best memories or perhaps in other words the moments at which I've been happiest in my life. When I woke up the next morning (I managed to fall asleep in the end) I was thinking about moments. And what they mean. And who they are.
I once had a conversation with my grandad about moments, it was a conversation through our writings across the journal we both shared but a conversation all the same. We spoke of 'breathtaking' moments, to look out for them. And so I have been. And so I experienced them.
And so the other day I came across a quote which I'll find for you now " It's constant the moments, it's just, it's always right now." I agree to it on some levels but I also don't, I don't think the moments are constant, I think time is constant, time will always be passing us but a moment is when we stop and we look at that time right then right now and we feel something and we remember it. Or at least that's what a moment is to me.
And so last night, lying there in the dark, I thought about the times in my life where I've looked up and I've smiled and I've thought right now I am happy. I am happy in this moment and nothing else matters. And I think that as long as we each have these moments in our life, well then we're doing an alright job.
Sorry for rambling
Here's a moment I was completely happy.
-Savannah-
